music and dance

i spent the last 45 minutes dancing to my reclaimed vinyl coursing through my headphones and liquidancing all around the basement. isa was playing a computer game. i had forgotten how much i love electronic music and dance. i had for so long relinquished my love for electronic. i had given up. i realize now that this was due to the fact that i had ceased to dance to it. i think that the human component is essentially missing from electronic until you put it back in there with your body. flowing and bending to the beats revived in me a sensation and love for the dance, a feeling that i had been unknowingly missing and mourning. i feel so free and full of life, a motion that does not cease, and which bubbles forth with the vitality of youth. i feel like i am nineteen again, pulsing my body to a beat at a party with trippy light shows falling down the walls, and psychedelics plying my brain with ecstatic visions and sensations. i do not miss the nastiness of those times, but i am remembering the joy and the life.